Monday, February 21, 2011

great sorrow!

marina abramovic - happy christmas - 2008
my little tender ones, i know that my goal as your humble narrator is to speak to you of joy and things that are great. i want you to see the greatness in you. in doing this, i want to inspire or help to inspire all things true and honest within you. that includes your darkness. the authentic parts of you are all of the parts of you.  i know it's easy to keep your sadness, your anger, your fear in a place that is inaccessible to others - where they can't hold it, or stroke it gently for you.  

i want you to open up these caverns. o, just try, sweet ones! we are there, waiting to give you our arms for holding, our lips for hushing, our ears for listening, our hearts to love you.  we will rock you against us and it will be okay. 

in an effort to ask these things of you, it seems only fair that i share with you this thing - this thing that comes from a place of great sorrow. that is to say: i get naked, you get naked.  let's do this together.  i'm with you.

my father, robust and bright.
my father, the patriarch.
my father, the child.
my father, the great.
my father, the bewildered.
my father, the peacemaker.
my father, the warmonger.
my father, the effervescent.
my father, the enervated.
my father, alive and living, is gone/has been gone now.


you are loved for all of things that are inside of you.
your darkness is marvelous!
show me your fucked-up-ness!
i will honour it!

the below video is a live performance of hope there's someone by antony and the johnsons.  antony hegarty is a beautiful, transcendent example [at least musically/lyrically] of what it means to honour your sadness and your fear in order to be free. his darkness is the most moving.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

a great message to you.

marina abramovic & ulay - rest energy, 1980
my beguiling readers, it's been a bit of a time since i talked about you and to you. you! my little tenders! there are some things i want to tell you! have to tell you! need to tell you! things that you must hear and know in your very core.

i wanted to tell you that you are beautiful. no, you're bigger than that. you are dazzling! you are wild! you are savage and uncultivated! you are free and the world is big enough for all of us.

we are the ruler and we are the people.

remember, we need to hold hands across this great, wide expanse. we need to look at one another. i will look you in the eye, that is my oath. i promise i won't ignore you or your astounding, incredible presence.  you miracle!  you exist.  did you know that?

we are here!

i want you to know that the things you offer will be taken up by me and exercised in my hands and my heart.  your gifts are staggering.

let's be awake and wide-eyed together!
let's show one another things that bring us joy.
let's bring one another joy.
i will offer you this and my love and the deepest, secret parts of my heart.

i want you to know that you have the potential for a lifetime of momentous actions whereby you will change those around you.  you will mark someone's life.  i want to mark my life by these momentous actions.  i want a mark on me that has you in it.
5000-year-old mantuans in tender embrace

i know times can be hard.

sometimes the weight of a sorrowful heart can make us cold and ache to touch.  i know things can bury us. but i know you are in there. i promise i will find you. if ever you are lost, i will not give up on you.

i want the shine in your eyes to reflect my love for you!
can't you see that we're in this together?
i honour you.
we will take care of you.
all of us.
you are not alone.
you are loved.
you are spectacular!
i hold you in my heart.
please carry me with you.